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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Farewell Ninang....

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Farewell Ninang... I will always remember you and keep you in my heart.

Even though I feel I lost an important person in my life, I'm pleased that her pain has came to an end. Everyone I had talked to that knew my Aunt told me that she had a smile in her eye. She had this way about her, where she would always smile and crack a joke. Whenever I did something odd, she'd shrug her shoulders and call me silly.

I do miss her but I know she wouldn't want me to be sad too long, if at all. I said in my Words of Remembrance for her that she'll never be truly gone as long as I can remember her smile and humor. Her son and I have grown much closer. Even though we're cousins, we were always together where me and my brother feels as if he's our third brother.

And I'm especially grateful to Qiao, for being by my side... even though she still has a wedding to plan, I.E. ours.

And I cannot forget my friends who offered their well wishes and prayers.

Thank you all...


Saturday, October 31, 2009

I'm rehashing an old entry I wrote back in June, regarding cancer... and how much it sucks...

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I sometimes find myself questioning God's existence but at the same time praying...

Ever heard of the story of Job? The devil goes to God and tells him, man only worships you because everything is good. God said, "nuh-uh". So God and the devil makes a little bet and they bet everything on a man named Job.

God then turns Job's life into shit. Taking away his wealth, killing his family, and then making him sick. All the while, Job never lost his faith. "The good Lord giveth, the good Lord taketh..." or some shit.

So God was basically all, "In your face BYTCH" to the devil.

Here's the kicker... and this isn't in the Book of Job...

So Job, after all is said and done, and he's in the kingdom of God, asks Him, "Why Lord... Why me?"

"Well Job" God answers, "There's just something about you that pisses me off..."

Sometimes I think... there is no devil... just God when he's drunk.

As negative as that sounds, I wondered if there was another meaning to this.

The good Lord gives, and the good Lord takes.

Life is fleeting and for that moment, it's times like this that we should slow down and REALLY appreciate what we have, who we have, for the short time that they're allowed with us. I always thought I had forever but I know realistically that's not right. Death is apart of the life cycle.... and as painful as it may be, it reminds us that we should cherish what little time we have.

When I was little, an hour seemed long and a year seemed like forever. As I'm much older now, time progresses much faster and a year can feels very similar to my childhood hours.
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I wrote this in regards for my aunt who was going through cancer. She passed away today... er yesterday. I still can't believe it... Life really is too short... so we have to make best with what little time we have.

Today, I watched water boil. My aunt used to tell me if I tried to watch water boil, it wouldn't. I just kept staring into the pot, watching lines form along the bottom of the pot, until bubbles began to rise rapidly.

I keep telling myself I shouldn't be sad and that she's in a better place now and her suffering has ended. I keep telling myself that... but I can't help but be sad...




Wednesday, October 21, 2009

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Irony?

I guess this is irony.


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This is my newest toy, thanks to Qiao. The Diana F+. She thinks it's a piece of shit, I think it's awesome. She also got for herself the Fuji Instax Mini 25. Also, with my Diana, Qiao also got me the Instant Back+, which can pop out Fuji Instax Instant Film.

When I first opened it up, it was a bit overwhelming. Shooting is kinda difficult also and I forget to remove the lens cap more often than naught.

Anyway, this shot was taken with my 30D with a wide angle lens and I placed the Diana's flash with my 30D to get that weird light. Overall, it's pretty fun.

Fun fact, Qiao and I had our engagement session with Kelsey. I brought the Diana F+. That's like brining a cell phone camera from the late 90's to a photoshoot. HAHA


Monday, October 19, 2009

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Usually I'm scared and terrified of cats. But this one was kinda cute.


Monday, October 12, 2009

Mararac Photography

This was taken almost two months ago. I've been a bit lazy about posting photography lately the more Qiao and I get into the business, though SPX and planning our wedding had something to do with it.

It's a little less than two more months before we tie the knot and I'm extremely glad for the support Qiao has given me. I don't know how I could have gotten through this weekend without her.



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